if only.

Isaiah.....

I love you! It's been a year and a half since I've seen you last and I can't believe that you're gonna be 3 years old soon.

I wish that my brother would have never let you guys go.

Mommy says you're quite the little man.

I've never heard you talk :[

I wish with all of my heart that I could hug you and kiss you and tell you that Aunty "Nana" loves you.

I look at your pictures and you are so big and so handsome.

I can only pray that you guys get to be closer in the future...I'd like Maia to meet her cousins!

I miss your laugh and your big brown eyes!!

Zachary....

I've never really got a chance to meet you, but I have no doubt that you're insanely cool.

You look so big now and it's hard to believe that the last time I saw you, you were a whopping 6 lbs!

I know that you're gonna grow up to be quite an awesome man!

I'm so sorry, that I haven't gotten an opportunity to see you.

Trust me tho, I really really really love you.

I miss you little guy! I love you a lot!

Isaiah and Zach - 

I wish you guys lived closer....

I wish that mommy and daddy secretly end up together...

But I realize that my dream is quite silly....

I wish you guys grow up to know how much I love and miss you....

I wish you knew how much I'd give to see you....

I wish I had a lot of money and time hahaha...

if only.

Amanda:

I love you so much.

You're an amazing mother and the boys really love you a lot.

Please please, if you're reading this, kiss the boys for me.

You guys are in my heart and in my thoughts.

I miss you guys so much!

 

PS- aren't they just the cutest little boys? I miss them :[  They're my nephews.